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Name: Christopher
Location: Waxahachie, Texas, United States
Birthday: 2/27/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: I am interested in many things, but right now I am really in the process of getting back to the basics of my faith. Developing that personal walk with Christ. Relearning how to read my bible, pray, seek Gods face and know him more. I love doing things with friends and hanging out, but I am trying to cut back on things that I like to do, and focus more on the reason I am in school now.
Expertise: I am an expert in brokeness. I once had a much higher opinion of myself, that I was an awesome man of God. However I think God has an amazing way of humbling us to let us know that we are nothing without him. So I am an exert in knowing now that I am nothing without Christ.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Hospitality
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Yahoo:  chrisrau7@yahoo.com
Member Since:
4/19/2005
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| hey everyone hope that you are doing well and having a good day. I hung
out today with my suit mates from my dorm next semester and I had such
a good time they are hillarious and we had such a good time. i am so
glad that I am going to Guynes I think it is going to be so much better
for me. I am probably going to need to change xangas since this one is
for Davis but anyways I will talk to yall tomorrow things are so good
and I am having such a good time I have a final for tomorrow that I
need to study for but i have been meeting some amazing people and
having some awesome friendships. Why is it that I would ever have
wanted anything else than I have now or have ever been upset with my
life in the past. I love everything about it now. When I see others who
come down on me, I think why would I be upset would I ever want to be
like that, and the answer is no. So I am so happy things are great.
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| Ok, long time no write but I am going to start using this thing more. I
got off myspace because the adds of half naked wemon got a little old.
I love my facebook and xanga is a little more innocent where you can
talk to people and its not so much badly advertised by those sites.
Anyways today I preached in class chapel. I honestly was so excited to
do it, especially because that its nothing I ever expected to do until
I was a junior or senior. My meassage was simple to say that it went
along with the Christmas season and I just read out of Matthew 1:18-25,
which is the Christmas story, my two points were the names of God in
the story. 1 Immanuel which means God with us, and I just talked about
how even when your alone and feeling like giving up God is with you and
I just talked about things that were going on in my own life. 2 I
talked about Jesus-because he will save his people form their sins. I
just talked about how great God was and how perfect his love with and
that he would leave the 99 to come to us. I finished off the meassage
just as a call that we would take the things God has given us and go
out and witness. I think overall it went real well. It was by far the
most people I have ever spoken in front of. I spoke for the most part
clearly without any pauses or times that I lost my thought. I was a
little nervous but I was able to remember eveything I wanted to say,
and didnt look at any notes and stayed away form just standing behind
the podeum. So overall I am just glad that its over and that I was able
to have the opportunity and that It went well. I think that is maybe
one of the best times I have spoken, but none of it was me. I give all
praise and Glory to God for giving me a word to speak and being there
for me because on my own I would have probably fell apart. So God Bless
all of you and write me some comments. Dont just look at my site write
me something... Later Chris <><
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| I just am so happy right now. I know I must sound like the most manic
depressive person in the world, but God is in control and why should I
feel upset or alone or worried about anything I praise God that He is
my source and my strength and that it is in him that I trust. I am
sleepy otherwise I would write more but God is in control and my eyes
are on him
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| Look at me, I am trying to do the right thing and I guess I am just
looking at myself and feeling frustrated and upset. I am sick and tired
of this, I want what God has for me and I dont want to settle and give
in. It feels like on one hand that doing things that I will just give
in and give up on the things that I want to do. The other is telling me
you stupid looser you just gave up on things that would have been good
for you because of your convictions. I dont know completly what is
going on. I know that this honestly has to be just Satans way of trying
to get me to just give up. I dont know what is the deal I know that I
dont really want to be anywhere I love home and I love my family but I
dont want to come home for Christmas break I dont really have a point
to be there now. I love my church but I honestly dont really feel like
I have a place there anymore. I dont want to be some hermit that just
confines to himself I want to go out and have fun and be around my good
friends and just get my mind off these subjects it seems like when I am
alone is when they come. I just need to have some kind of a peace that
gets my mind off this stuff. Anyways I am blabbing but yeahh...
God I need you and I may not always do the things that are right but I
want to have you in my life. I cant make it on my own and I cant make
it without you. I know that you are using me here I just need to know
it. Please God show me that You are the one that is in control and that
it is not me. I need your help and your wisdom to do things. I dont
want to push people away and at the same time I dont want to give in to
everything that it is that I want to do. I dont want to have to settle
for someone who dosent have the same convictions that I do. I
deffinetly know that no one is completly alike I just want the basic
things that makes up a Christian that sounds funny but yeahhh I dont
want to compromise for someone who isnt seeking after the same things I
am and avoiding the same things. I dont know anyways God just let me
see your face and take away my desires and my mind that wanders far
more than it should.
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| Will trying to do the right thing end you up alone? When you stick to
your values and try not to give in to your desires dose it make you
hated by everyone. This is the part right now when it seems hard today
at work things were great but now I have made my decisions and they
have brought me closer to God but further away form people I care
about. I guess I have to understand or accept that this is a lonley
road. I wonder almost how Jesus felt when he was here, all the times he
said things about being frustrated with unbelief and are faults how
upset was he when he was here. I have no clue but I know that even in
these times when I do feel alone I am not. Whatever it is that I do or
go I have to know that God is in control. I do not understand his plans
or his ways but I am content to trust in him. Its so easy to say to
someone get over something or to preach a meassage and believe it at
the time but these are the times that test mens souls. When you have
made your decision and have decided what you will do, then trying to
stick with it no matter what. I am not sure what God has for me or even
the will I am supposed to be in. This is a time I guess more when I
have to rely on the fact that I am trying to seperate things from my
life that bring me further from where I am supposed to be. Its very
difficult to some degree and its odd seeing myself making these
choices. I am loosing out on other things but I am glad that I know I
am getting stronger will to keep strong.
Heavenly Father You know what it is that I need to do and not do in my
life. I ask You that Your will would be done. Take away my selfish
thoughts that are souly motivated on what I want. Crucify me so that my
life would be a light for future generations. Use me in whatever
capacity that You would. Forgive me for my attitude tonight in the last
few hours. I ask you that you would help me to remember that Your
will is better than my own and that Your plans are the things that will
bring me happiness. Take away my wants and replace them with Yours. I
need your strength and Your wisdom. I can't make it with out you. Alone
I am nothing and will fall, You are the only thing that gives me the
strength to make it through. Immanuel my God who is with me let me feel
Your presence and Your love. Reveal to me Your love and let me
feel complete and fulfilled. I need You God help me.
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